There’s a difference
There are some people who just always seem to be alone. By some people, that would be me. I think I am really OK with that at this point in my life. It’s a time where I feel I should be selfish, and why not?
Onto the topic of dating. Dating and I just don’t really mix too well. More often than not I get bored, annoyed, irritated, and most importantly uninterested. I’m not picky, I just know what I want— or at least know what I dislike. It’s not that I’m scared to let someone into my life, I am, but sometimes that’s not what it is. Sometimes it’s just this— that person and I are not compatible, and anyone paying close enough attention can realize that. I mean, more often that not you’re going to meet people you’re incompatible with.. and to be quite frank, I just do not understand how someone can bounce relationship to relationship. I really cannot even pretend that things will work out for a month, let alone several. Wasting time is one of my biggest pet peeves, that’s probably why I can’t stand listening to stories with way too many unnecessary details. But back to my point— I’m just not the relationship type of girl. At least not today.
Even if I’m dating someone, I’m pretty sure I think more about other men when I’m dating someone (note: not when I’m in a relationship, when I’m just going on dates with someone new). I think that’s pretty weird considering I don’t think about it as much when there’s no one to occupy my mind. I think I like this single thing a little more than I am willing to admit.
Honestly, I’m looking around. I’m better off single, for now.
Fuck this pasta, I think I’m about to throw up.
